Screwed up!!

Why?? Going into the interview room with confidence of persuading to get the job, then during the interview, hesitated on it.. what ever made me think twice?? The mundaneness of it?? The uncertainty it brings??

I totally flopped!! On one hand, it means so much to me to get the job, on the other hand, my goals and ambitions are now in a total mess!! But I guess he said it right, why is it that when we are young, we can write so many things about what we want to be when we grow up but as we grow up, it gets so much more difficult to know what you want?? The answer of it is actually very simple, we are ignorant and innocent at a young age, as we grow older, we realise the harsh reality of life.. Doctors, pilots, astronomers, lawyers.. just to name a few of our ambitions at young, how many of us really do fulfill these dreams...

Now to think of it, if I am not selected for this position, Im gonna have serious doubts about my future, especially in this tough times.. I am not going to switch from one job to another.. No more temps for me, I just wanna settle down in a company and get down to planning my career... Temps are good but in a way, I just dont feel belonging... Argh, feeling so confused and crappy right now~~~~~~

talked more trash @ 10:47 PM

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